Tangled, that's how I feel these days. My husband and I moved into this house two years ago but until last December we had no assurance we were staying. In December Grace Baptist Church called Bill (my husband) as their permanent pastor. Previously he served as interim. Now I know we're staying. So I finished most of the unpacking and setting up house. I'd say I'm about eighty percent there. Then I dove into ministry including; chairing the Women's ministry, overseeing women's Bible studies and yes, blogging and trying to write a book. The unfinished twenty percent haunts me, as does the tension between church and writing ministry. Oh, and did I mention I also work retail two days a week? So the homemaking remains unfinished as I weave the other threads that make up my life. Then I hit a snag; the tangled threads lie in a clump. The weaving slows. Nothing looks right. I drop stitches and knots seem to stop any real progress. I find being tangled is a lot like catching on fire if I don't stop, drop and roll I'll get burned.
1. STOP "Be still and know that I AM God." Psalm 46:10
I've been tangled before. I know God allows busy seasons for a time, not forever. I just need to take a day alone with God. I'm pretty sure all my to do's are things He wants me to do but I need to focus on Him and let Him untangle all the threads He's put on the loom. Our lives are a tapestry. God the Master Weaver works with us as His apprentices. We apprentices get things tangled at times. We break threads we shouldn't and skip stitches but He always leans in to correct and redirect our flawed work. We just need to stop and listen to Him.
2. DROP "Bear one another's burdens..." Galatians 6:2
I have to drop my burden, unload it. If I don't no one will help me carry it. I need to be humble and ask for help or at least share my situation and ask for prayer.
I know I am not alone in feeling tangled. Some of you have more on your plate than me. For example, before Nancy (my good friend and writing accountability partner) left for a family reunion, she shared the her knots of busyness, "I have company coming this weekend. Then Judd and I leave the next morning. I have to wash the bedding before we leave because we have guest staying here while we're gone." She's blogging and writing a book too. She also leads a book club and she's an elder's wife.
Nancy could have cancelled our Friday morning meeting but she wove me in. Her transparency gave me an opportunity to help. I had an extra set of brand new sheets to give her so she didn't need to do laundry before leaving.
Nancy was relieved and I was happy for the empty space in the closet. We each felt a tad less tangled. As a pack rat, my life gets tangled in stuff at times but God, Who wove me that way, uses the stuff He stores in my house to bless those in need.
This explains why I'm telling you I'm feeling tangled. I know an all knowing God has a child out there that has something I need, something to help me untie the knots. Maybe it's a moment to pray for me or a great time management insight.
3. ROLL "And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart." Galatians 6:9
Once I've spent a day with God and shared my burden it's time to get back to work.The piles of laundry still resemble a mountain range and the to dos on my list are more than I can get done but at least now I'm not doing it alone. God works in and through me to do His good pleasure.
I know if I could do everything I'd take credit for it. God likes to put us in places of dependency because that's where we belong. Then, as sections of the tapestry become complete, He gets the glory. His strength is perfected in our weakness. He also wants us to remember He must be our focus. He is the one thing we have need of. As an unskilled weaver, I'd be happy with a monochromatic piece but God plans my life to be His master piece. So I need to learn to handle lots of threads.
Any chance you're feeling tangled too? Maybe you need to stop, take a day alone with God. Then drop, unload your burden on a listening ear. Now roll, get back at it!
Better yet maybe you’re the sister with the supply I need. Thanks!
Father, please, help us rest in You in spite of the busyness You may choose for us. You long to carry us through. Please, keep us from the folly of trying to get by on our own strength. We desperately need You and Your body. Amen